THIS BLOG CAN BE TRIGGERING!

I'm 18. I've been depressed for as long as I can remember. I can't say I've been through hell and back cause I haven’t come back, so let’s just say I'm going through hell. Every single day I wonder if life is worth living. When I seriously start thinking about suicide, I have this wave of relief come over me. I don’t know how much longer I can keep living. I've contemplated suicide many times, and went to the hospital three times because of it. I've been in therapy since my first suicide attempt. I'm 3 months clean from cutting, but I feel a relapse soon... My two year olds at the daycare I work at are teaching me how to smile at the simplest things. They're helping me find myself, even though they're only two. <3 I'm going to school for criminal justice and hopefully becoming a police officer. If anyone needs to talk or vent, I'll listen. If anyone needs advice, I'll try my best to help.

Just remember... You're beautiful no matter what anyone says! Stay strong! <3